I miss you so much…not even just you i miss hearing about your day and your voice and our inside jokes but you changed and you have put a really good girl through hell I have had enough I’m sorry but you are no longer with it to me

All I can do is sit here and think..its really sucks to be me right now….I’ve come to the conclusion that me alone will never be enough for now, I will never be her. I don’t know what you two had but everything you said about it just sounded terrible, but here she is again, having you at her will, you can’t see she only wants you because you’re happy in two years she never made you feel wanted…why now? I understand though cause I don’t like myself that much either my thighs are big and my tummy is chunky I’m short and chunky..she’s not, but , I’m nice and loving..she’s not. I’m there for you through any choice you make good or bad…she’s not. Ill take care of you when your sick or can’t handle your alcohol…she wouldn’t. I’m friendly to your mom and friends…she’s not. They love me…they hate her. So why aren’t I enough..I know I’m not perfect but if you can’t see me dedicated to you and loving you you must be blind. I’ve caught you 3 times within a week lying to me about her and that you guys talk and flirt…but most of all that you want and miss her. I can’t be her. I wish you could be inlove with me but I’m not her. I want to be enough for you but I’m not her but you tell me to stay and I listen cause I love you, and you love her, and then I think about how much it sucks to be me right now